Today is not looking like it will be a very good day. I am supposed to start living my daydreams of my home in Manila. I had not been back for 3 long years. But the ash clouds are standing in the way.

I am supposed to start spending time with my family after my grandmother's death and stay until her 40th day death anniversary - we have this is a tradition of celebrating the 40th day as we believe it is the time the earth-bound soul of the departed finally leaves this earth and goes into heaven. It will be a bittersweet time. A time for those who are left behind to start moving on and learn to celebrate the departed's life.

Now, I content myself with looking at pictures of my grandmother's home.